sometimes we need a break.

this is the time most high schoolers have been waiting for.

christmas break.

sleeping in. hanging out. watching movies. giving gifts. vacations. and drinking hot chocolate of course!

a break from listening to teachers, drama, homework, caring about waht you look like every second of the day, and waking up early.

dont waste this time. use it wisely.

what are your plans?

living the life....what life?

i havent posted in awhile.

in fact, i havent been on the computer in awhile.

reason for my absence?
one word.

basketball.

it has literally taken over my life. and you know what? i am okay with that.

so update on me.

less than a month until...

i am 16

i get my braces off

i get a cell phone

christmas break

a new year

i get my lisence/car

and 2nd semester of my sophomore year!

so. this is christmas.

it might be a little early to post about this but i couldnt contain it.
as my family and i were setting up christmas decorations and listening to holiday music, i decided that i am so incredibly excited for christmas this year. and it has finally hit me that it is only a few weeks away. i hope most of you feel the same way. i love driving the road home at night and seeing christmas lights lit and hung, it makes me smile. they are just pretty. no denying it. snow? i am usually adverse to the idea, but no one can say that they dont want a white christmas. i love a first snow, where it is beautiful. kids sled. teens ski and snowboard. and then you come insde and enjoy some warm hot chocolate. now what can be better than that?  oh yeah, giving gifts. dont get me wrong recieving gifts is great to but, there is that special feeling that you get when you see someone open a present that has not left your mind since you got it for them. and giving gifts for charity is also amazing. and of course, our savior, was born.

 so hopefully, you will all be filled with christmas cheer, i know i am.

it must mean i am next.

my cousin got married. so cute. i cant wait until i do.

reception was gorgeous. my aunt is amazing.

pictures? perfect with my other aunt as a photographer.

the beautiful bride threw the bouquet at the end of the night.

and i caught it.

one of the most exciting nights of my life.

cousins.

saved my life.

tired of the old braid? even the fishtail? try this!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OZEsf2uXzZU&feature=player_detailpage



my hair does not hold a curl. the only way it stays is if i sleep in curlers.
but i saw this video and it has changed my life! okay sounds cheesy, but true.
watch it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3FV-YO46E8Y&feature=player_detailpage

just so you know.

because, sometimes no one else listens.

it is fun to design and re-design again and again.

blog? journal? same thing. pretty much.

i enjoy typing.

of course i want y'all to know about my problems in life.

and i read about all of yours. but find it helpful.

i have always had a vision of me passing down my URL address

and having my daughter read my entire blog.  too wierd?

what else do i have to do.

i dont know how to say somethings. so i vent here.

i love reading about other girl's lifes.

i find it entertaining.

and simply. i love it.

i would now like to ask shaylee, brit, alexis, and olivia to do the same. and tell us all why they blog.

pleezz no mo-wa!

i just spent the last half an hour tickling my sister.

yes, i did say tickle.

the toture that makes you smile.

you have got to love family.

never take it for granted.

live with them. laugh with them. love them.

eleven eleven eleven eleven eleven.

i did in fact make a wish. i hope it comes true.

free drinks at hearts. thats where i went for lunch.

best friends? couldn't live without them.

good luck. to whatever your plans are.

i am going to wish again tonight. no worrys.

need some change?

i am behind in school. i should really be homework right now. precal? someone pleease teach me how to do it. biggest procrastinator in the world. that's me.

that needs to change.

boys? what boys? of course, every girl fantasizes about a boyfriend. and for me, fantasizing is pretty much all that ever comes of it. i try to make it work, i want it to work, it almost does, but then doesn't.

hopefully that will change.

less than two months. until what? you ask.

my 16th birthday. driver's license. braces off. and dating. job=money. need i say more?

those are some big changes.

should i color my hair for the first time?

a possible change.

basketball conditioning. new and slightly not as good seminary class. driving. driving. driving.
the best friend i have had since 5th grade no longer talks to me. high school.
we are all growing up. and doing new things.

change is good.

personal best.

i want to be better at basketball.

i want to be better at soccer.

so what am i going to do?

i am going to work on my free time. i am going to become my personal best.

now, dont think that this will only last about a week. though it might. i am really going to work hard.

so then when i am older i will be the one giving motavational speeches.

i will be better.

here i come.

whats on my mind right now?

basketball.

i made the team.

let the memory making begin.

yay or nay?

actually an english assignment... but i like it!

Cruel as it is, we somehow grow up.

            Sometimes, puberty is cruel.

            That is ultimately the tribulation that every single person must go through.  As teenage girls weep, families scream in argument, and voices change for the better.

            Sometimes the zits come and will not stop. Sometimes the lucky few will have perfect skin and make everyone else jealous. Sometimes hormones set in and smack the relationships like a fist. Sometimes friends are all that matter. And sometimes, a friendship is destroyed and splits itself in two.

            Sometimes puberty is cruel.

            And, always, when it is, we do the same thing.  We deal with it. We weep and mourn, we recover, and wash our faces with “guaranteed” results. And we go to school 5 days a week. This is the price of growing up. And, arguably, the most dramatic part of our lives.

            Sometimes, puberty is cruel, and you have no choice but to accept that as part of the bargain called life. And when it is your turn to deal with it, you do.

            Just know, it’s not always going to be your turn.

            At times, it seems as if mother nature herself is slaughtering any chance we have to have a good day. 

            Sometimes, puberty is cruel.

            But what else are you going to do?  As your parents put it, deal with it. Even less have we the ability the questions that burn the moment: Why can’t I be as pretty as her? What the heck is going on with my body? And What do I do to get rid of these disgusting pimples?

            We are hamstrung by social statuses, so we can only do what we always do, only hang out with friends and get through high school day by day. And watch teenagers change and immaturely grow mature.

            Do your homework. Cry, maybe a little. Brush your teeth. Smile. And deal with it. Show the world once again a stubborn insistence on growing up, despite all the cruelties of puberty.

bedhead bun.

we were all wearing them. due to the fact that we woke up and hour early to go to a morningside.

you know the type.
slightly frizzy.
on top or to the side of our head.
super cute.


yeah. its the bedhead bun. i encourage you to try it.

11-1-11..the joys it brought.

woke up with enough time to shower and be ready in a decent amount of time.
(despite the fact that i was up until about 12:30 since i was celebrating halloween)

it was a b-day.

i perfer b-days to a-days.

just becuase i have seminary.

with the best class/teacher in the world.

range was particually better today.
i wasnt quite as nervous.
we had a better teacher.
.....and i dominated on the drills.

homework?

 done.

sort through clothes?

been there..

good day?

fabulous.

had to blog about it?

of course..always.

car number 7

first day of driving range?

exciting and boring all in the same sentence.

nerve racking..(espessially so after i saw my crush walk up and smile. even though before i was secrectly wishing he would be there.)
i even forgot how to roll down my window, he had to help me. embarrassing.

amy being my partner. talk about party car.
we can drag cones and laugh about it.

am i blushing or is it the heat??.....blushing.


all and all.... success.

a ticket for the rollercoaster, pleease!

you know how in movies the main character will have problems with finding love

and refer to it as a rollercoaster...yeah i can relate completely.

he holds my hand and i think i am in love.
he doesnt talk to me and i am pretty sure i am over him.
he apologizes and says he likes me and i slowly let him back in.
and after awhile he stops talking to me and admits he doesnt like anyone.
then after i have decided that he is not worth it,
he comes back and is the sweetest guy and always wants to be near me.

i cant ignore the amount of adoration i get from him.

i cant ingnore the fact that he could have hung out with all of his guy friends, but he wanted to be with me.

i cant ignore his cute way of flirting, or his smile.

the way he touches me in the most casual way and sends my heart racing.

so, currently, he is the one i want to hang out with,
the one i spend my night thinking about,
the one who makes me nervous,
the one who i want to be around,
and the one who makes me smile.

will it last?? i surely hope so.

i am on a rollercoaster...and right now i am enjoying the ride.

friendship lasts.

lets stop the envy.

the one girl who you envy.

the one girl that could wear anything and you want to look just like her.

she seems like the prettiest girl in the school.

the one everyone wants to know.

everyone knows her name.

she is so sweet. so kind. so friendly. so gorgeous. so...lucky.

the girl with perfect hair. a perfect smile. the perfect boy.

she is your friend and you love her.

and guess what?? she looks at you the same way.

so none of this coveting and wishing to be different.

be who you are. why? because that's the girl who people love.

i hope none of you are never negative about yourselves.

i am guilty of this. but it is going to change.

just remember, you are a child of god . and you are perfectly perfect being you.

i love you all.

first day of fall break.

Oquirrh Mountain Temple

Draper Temple

Jordan River Temple

better late than never.

here it comes... the 7 random things about me.

1.  i have no idea what color my eyes are. one day they are blue, then green, and sometimes brown. but i wouldn't trade it for anything.

2. speaking of eyes. i love them. eyes and smiles. thats what i look at.

3. soccer, basketball, track, volleyball, tennis, football, you name it. i respect all athletes and dont think any sport is "more manly" or harder than another.

4. i have so many things that i want to be when i grow up, that i wish i could live forever.

5. my camera is probably in my hand, wherever i go.

6. i believe in love. all sorts. and i cannot wait until i find that "one." (obviously in the distant future)
i believe in being happy also. i admire those who find it in eveything.

7. i am the oldest of 8 kids. yup. its true. and i wouldn't have it any other way.


and there you have it.

the best things about friends

they give you advice.

and not the cheap advice (what you want to hear), but real advice.

and they love you so much that they tell the truth.

they will listen.

you had a bad day. you have boy troubles. who do you tell?

your friends! and they really do listen and encourage/agree with you.

the best thing is that they actually want to listen.

they are cute!

you get to hang out with all these beautiful girls!

we laugh hysterically.

they are all kind and would never be rude.

we enjoy be creative.

they set amazing examples.

we can condition together...without a coach.

i can be myself around them. without the pressure of trying to impress.

what are the best things about your friends?

if we were a movie...

i would be the girl who gets nervous around you but tries to hide it. the girl who wants to be your best friend more than anything. the girl who has problems making up her mind and wants everything to be perfect. the girl who cant think of much else. the girl who gets excited to hang out with you. the girl you can tell anyhting to. the girl who is friends with your friends and family.

you would be the guy who can say what you feel. and not be afraid. the guy, that makes all the other girl's jealous. the guy who makes me feel pretty. you would be the guy who is constantly on my mind. the guy who i can tell anything to. the guy who respects me and who can very well be my best friend. who is not afraid to show your affection. the guy who loves me for me.
we would be the awkward couple that dont find out about eachother's love util the end of the movie. we would be best friends. we would be amazing. we would live happily ever after.

will there ever be a "we" between us?

{(this post wasn't really about a certain boy... just a future one)}

summarizing the good times.

soccer is over.
basketball has started.
best friends are really the best.
my family loves me.
school is... school.
the seasons have skipped from summer to winter... but, i love the fall.
my love life...who am i kidding, what love life?
seminary is my favorite class.
painting my nails is now a hobby.
homework has taken over my nights.
new camera....talk about photo shoots

so, basically, i am still alive and loving the life i live. i am enjoying being 15 years old, but i absolutely cannot wait until i am 16! ...less than 3 months...

this blog? i love it. and i am constantly thinking about ways to improve..any suggestions?

community chalk

what matters? it's how you play the game.

"Now, i would like for you to take a moment and write down three goals that you would like to accomplish this year."

-Coach Caitlyn. First team meeting.

my season goals. sophomore year. :

1. Dress/play varsity

2. Score!

3. Take state

Dress/play varsity.

now, this didn't exactly happen. i was more of a JV girl this season.

but, dont worry, i still have two more years.  

Score.

this did happen. it was our second game against Lone Peak and our varsity team had just lost.

i was playing left wing and it was almost half time.

the ball came right to me, the goal was right in front of me, and butterflies were in my stomach.

and i scored.

we won that game. and it felt amazing.

Take state.

this is actually a sensitive subject for the soccer team.

kit tells the story well.

but, here is the just of it.

we were told that to be able to go to state, we needed to win our next game.

well, guess what? we won!!

this was amaizng! we had just made history.

we were estatic...no one on earth was happier than our team.

then we got bad news... turns out that we were ONE point short of making to state.

our season is over.

those months were the best. they went by so quick.

i have never pushed myself harder or had the most fun.

ps

speaking of goals
help this girl out. 

it might be an obession.

i found a new hobbie :) nail polish? yeah.

searching for new ways to create art on my nails? for sure.

its fine.

hear me out.

so, remember this post?

it makes me laugh, now that read over it.

well, to sum it up, i have had a total change in perspective.

why? ...that's another story. ( to be told )

i have decided to focus on soccer/basketball (try outs soon!) and also i want to focus on strengthening my testimony. i have decided that these, my best girlfriends, and my family are more important and i am devoting my time to them. no need for boys and their drama. of course i can still flirt with them, i mean who doesn't, i am just not trying to deal with a relationship yet.
make sure that those of you who are in a relationship... i am not against you or anyone, i think its cute.
its just not for me.

my friends are where it is at.
laughing until it hurts and you beg them to stop. telling secrets. staying up late. loving every moment. what would i do without them?
new best friends? i can't get enough.

my mom is so incredibly sweet to me. and sometimes i don't deserve it.
she stood in line for 40 minutes just to get me my first pair of toms. (which, by the way, she doest think are the cutest) she is amazing. she is my role model in so many ways. i love her. she loves me. i hope to be just like her.

soccer? pretty much the most fun i have ever had. through the frustration, hard times, and successes, i find my sisters. my sisters who i see every single day. i see them more then i see my family these days.

basketball? try outs are coming up. and i want to make the team. i found out that half the 9th grade team from last is not trying out. and it makes me sad. i love those girls. but i hope to make plenty of new friends.

my testimony. it could definitely use some strengthening. i want to get my patriartical blessing, but i don't feel prepared enough. I'm talking reading my scriptures, saying my prayers, and thinking of everyone as a child of God. ( and you know i mean business, because i teared up just typing that)

i have been rambling. but this is my life. and i can for sure use support. love you. thanks for listening.

the post that helped in so many ways.

"i've realized, people change. and things change, and sometimes you don't have as much control over situations as you would like to. but that's what happens in life. you've just gotta deal with it. because if your always upset and wishing you could change how people act, you will be unhappy. you'll start noticing the bad in others, and looking for their insecurities more than their positive qualities. i know, were all human, and we judge others like crazy. but we need to accept how people act, and they act that way because it's how they are. you can't change if someone is shy or completely crazy. it's who they are. and if someone acts crazy or shy in front of you, it means they trust you, because they are just being themselves. i've been through this; going from best friends to best strangers. honestly not knowing that girl anymore, like i used to. it's crazy how things change, but stuff happens. people change and things change. and that's how life works, so instead of complaining, im going to deal with it. because that's what im supposed to do. live with what cards im dealt, and play them well."

~angela. 

you live for.

the moment

when you are drenched in sweat,

running,

not willing to give up.

the moment

when your heart is racing,

your palms are sweating,

and there are butterflies in your stomach,

just beacuse you are with him.

the moment

when you realize that you couldn't live without your friends.

the moment

when you can't wait,

for new experiences.

the moments you live for.

Birds of a Feather.

Holy Cow Boutique.

Flower clips.

Rose rings.

Colorful spandex.

Feather earrings.

Headbands.

Cute shoes.

Amazing food.

write me a love story.

he is so kind to you.
you two are so cute together.

he holds your hand.
writes you the cutest texts.
will ditch hanging out with the guys just to see you.

i love hearing the cute stories. i really do. i am so happy for you.
but, why cant that happen to me?? i want someone like that.

i want someone...some boy to hold my hand.
to write me cute texts.
to hug me and make me feel like to most special girl.

sure i have crushes... sure i dream of the things that would make me smile.

seems like everyone around me has found a high school fling.

why not me?

my best friends tell me all their cute stories,
i am the third awkward wheel all the time.
i want to be the one telling the stories.
i want to be the one that has someone to make me nervous and scared...but the happiest at the same time.

maybe things will change once i am 16... less than 4 months left.

maybe i am just a teenage girl that obviously has nothing else more important in her life.

maybe i should stop listening to love songs that make me cry. or reading/watching chick flicks.

someone please... write me a love story.

i dont like this feeling

wore a sweatshirt today.

didnt care about my hair.

couldn't focas in class because it hurt.

sat alone.

cramping up to the point where you just have to bend over.

crying becuase you wish it would just stop.

not caring to talk to anyone.

missing soccer practice... which takes alot.

dentist appointment? yeah, missed it becuase the smell alone makes me nauseous.

im sick.

and i hate it.

My Hero.

She ran a marathon.

trained for about 6 months.

you gotta love her. my mom.

Happy Birthday Uncle Mark.

ups and downs.

i feel like i can write so much, about so many things.. but have no idea how to say it.
i want to tell you all that has happened lately....
the drama of high school,
the unity of our team,
the boys and the boys,
the laughing until you cry,
mixed emotions about everything,
the inside jokes,
the pet peeves that continue to haunt me,
why i cry,
the secrets i have to keep,
and the friends that i couldn't live without.

but, to be honest, i am not creative enough to make my life sound interesting. so you can use your imagination and think of me....a sophomore who is trying to handle the ups and downs of this teenage dream.

my life is complete.

so ... what has me so excited?

i got a new camera.

enough said.

my old one. may it rest in peace.

because now i have an amazingly perfect new one.

i cant wait.

because skirts with pockets are like heaven on earth.

just maybe

i was doodling one evening and drew up this... new blog title? just maybe....

2 minutes away.

temples are great.

every week. doing baptisms.

meeting kind old guys who can talk to you forever.

dont forget about the blessings of temples.

dont forget that some people have to travel for days just to see one.

and we have lots just minutes/hours away.

take advantage of it. ans dont loose sight of temples.

40 new additions to my family.

because i spend more time with them then with my family.
because we have team dinners.
we hang out... and have the best of times. we have sleepovers.
we laugh.  uncontrollably.
we motivate.
we talk.   for hours.
we love.

we see the worst and the best of each other.
we know each other as players, friends, and sisters.

(since i have been feeling a little picture deprived)